I never liked to leave home.
Not even to go on vacation.
I thought I'd die in my house.
Ten years ago I had no choice.
How's it gonna feel?
When I was told I'd be sharing my room in the nursing home.
I asked for Lexapro.
To help me cope.
( I still, take it.)
How's it gonna feel?
When the staff starts packing up my stuff.
The last night?
The day of?
How's it gonna feel?
The agency wants to make this house an all-male house.
I can't afford to live here by myself
I'm reminded all the time of the things I can't afford.
How's it gonna feel?
I don't want to live in this house anymore.
The changes have been too much.
It's the cul-de-sac/
The neighbors.
Creve Coeur.
That's what I'll miss.
How's it gonna feel?
St. Louis.
Town and Country.
Creve Coeur.
And now, the farthest move yet.
How's it gonna feel?
New county.
New area code.
New address.
A different SC.
New case manager.
New, new, new.
How's it gonna feel?
It's not that I'm not grateful.
I don't mean to be hateful.
"Do you know how many times clients have been moved?
Get over it. You're moving."
How's it gonna feel?
The administration has done so much.
Grateful and guilty
That's how I feel.
I'm just me.
Expand my horizons?
I am not a people person.
In my opinion, most people suck.
If I let you in you are special.
How's it gonna feel?
Send good thoughts, vibes, and prayers.
Because I don't know.
How it's gonna feel.
You've got this! What if the change feels great!?
ReplyDeleteI hope so.
DeleteWe will do it together.
ReplyDeleteThere will be things that won't be perfect.
There will be things that will be better.
It will be scary but we will do it together.
We can start new traditions and keep all of our memories.
We will do it together.
You are not alone.